Happy birthday Nancy!

I went to Nancy's birthday party. My very old friend Jan was there as well. It was good to see him again.

Nancy's boyfriend Paul plays the keyboard very well. Nancy does guitar and also knows the drums reasonably well. So they did a few songs.

Nordic Inge

There was a ship carrying the name of my lost love. Couldn't help photographing it for her. I'm a sucker...

After work I met Ruud for pints and Shoarma. Mr. bartender Barry tried to cheer me up. Most kind of him ;-)

The view across from Mulligans.

After dinner we had more pints and were later joined by Ruud's girlfriend Laurien.

I walked home alone.

Cycling

Crossing with the ferry this morning.

I went for a walk after lunch. I needed air.

On my way home I spotted the first babies of the season at the wharf. They're pretty quick!

When I got home I got on my bike right away and left. The views were pretty nice at times.

I cycled to my quiet spot at the edge of Amsterdam.

The Choppermeister.

Yours sincerely.

The edge.

Also the edge. There is nothing. Amsterdam ends here.

A streetlight.

I laid down on a bench for a while. Then the clouds came in and I decided to go back home.

The street smiled at me.

The beach

I took the day off today coz I was a bit of a mess. Marjolein offered to look after me a bit so I went to Haarlem. There we took the bus to the beach.

The weather in town was very good. Sunny and warm. But surprise, surprise! When we got to the beach there was fog and wind and no sun and it was cold!

The sea was a bit rough.

But I had my mind set on getting my feet wet all day. And when I have my mind set on something, it usually happens.

It was truly fucking cold!

And foggy still... We had lunch and then went back to Haarlem.

Where the sun was still out so we sat on a terrace and had some vino.

There's a fun fair in Haarlem at the moment.

And there is really good ice cream as well ;-)

Very happy Marjolein was there for me. She's a dear :-)

The break-up

Today is a very sad day. Inge told me she couldn't continue in to a relationship with me. After I cleaned up the mess in my own head I thought everything was fine and I totally didn't see this coming. But in the end you cannot force love so what can I do except cry? I actually quite can't believe this is happening...

We had a wonderful 6 weeks and I learned a lot about myself for which I'm grateful. No regrets and no hard feelings. I think Inge would have loved to see it work out just as much as I do but hey...
I hope I can somehow give her a place in my life. Time will tell.

And then I hit the pub with my best friend Mic. Gerrit joined for a while as well.

We drank.

And then we drank more. In fact so much I didn't think I'd live the next day ;-)

But the shoarma saved me! This was good shit man.

On my way home Mic and I did some late night shopping. I am so happy to have great friends. Wouldn't know what to do without them...

The meeting

Coffee. I drank quite a bit today coz I slept like shit. Life ain't going easy at the moment. Tough love...

I walked around a bit with my colleague Bjorn during lunch.

In the evening I had a meeting with the other apartment owners of my building. It was very not exciting. Thank fuck it didn't last the full hour...

Walking with Inge and Wentel

We went for a walk in the sun. It was lovely.

Wentel is getting very old and is getting worse quite fast. The walk was too long for her so Inge carried her a bit.

When I got home I saw that flowers are starting to grow in my garden.